I
woke up this morning with the sudden realisation that there were several things
I was supposed to have done by the end of the month, which still remain
unfinished. I mean, don't worry, it's not as if I've forgotten to order vital
medication for dying children, or neglected to clean the safety valves on a
nuclear reactor or something, so there will be no serious ramifications from my
lack of actions. But it's a big indicator of how my mind has been working
recently. Which is to say - it hasn't. Things that normally get done
without reminders have failed to pop into my thoughts, and tasks that normally
feel easy and quick have become cumbersome and time-consuming. And that bothers
me. I would like to blame overtiredness and end-of-Summer fatigue, but
unfortunately neither of those things are applying. So it's back to my old
fears of depression, early onset dementia, or a brain tumour. And I think we
know which of those is the most likely explanation...
RC 30-4-26
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