Drunken philosophy

3rd blog of the day, no less.
Shows you I have nothing better to do when Emily is working..
I have just been to the pub, where I saw the worst band in existence.
They were called 'The Cheerful Chaos' and they did a capella versions of songs by The Darkness.
You can't imagine just how bad songs by The Darkness are until you've heard them performed a capella by two 17-year-old music students and their alcoholic bearded uncle.
I didn't stay long. Neither did anyone else.
On my way out, I saw the tail end of a punch-up in the smoking shelter. Two blokes were laying into each other quite furiously, in a manner which led me to think they must be fighting about either a woman, or a football match. But it turned out I was wrong - as one of them was pulled away by the doorman, he could clearly be heard shouting "INSIGHT and INNATE BEHAVIOUR are the same thing, you BASTARD."
Nice way to end an evening.

RC 30-10-10

The pros and cons of witch-hiking

I bloody hate Hallowe'en.
I never got taken around by my mum to collect sweets from strangers, why should anyone else have that pleasure?
I've already had to turn away three groups of scavengers from our front door this evening, and it's only the 30th...
I'll bet you a shiny pound and a soggy chocolate that we end the weekend with our house attacked and our windows egged or painted.

On the plus side, Emily has promised to come over tomorrow dressed as 'a sexy witch' so it should be better than last year.

RC 30-10-10

Sister act

Hannah is going to do a Performing Arts course.
Yes I’m surprised as well.
Nathan is apparently encouraging her to follow her heart and use her ‘God-given talents’ which for some reason they both think include acting.
She’s already joined our local Amateur Dramatics group, which she hopes will serve as a ‘launch pad for her abilities.’
Mmm.
I don’t know how far she and ‘Agent Godboy’ think she can go, but I think the chances of her being a successful actress are about the same as my chances of being a successful racehorse.

RC 30-10-10

Back and bouncy

Evening all.
You’ve probably guessed by my continued absence from blogworld, but Emily and I are still together, and still spending most of our time in bed. It’s been great, although a little repetitive, and is a nice distraction from the weary world outside. Whether or not it will develop into anything beyond that remains to be seen.
A weird thing happened at work this week. Philippa and I haven’t spent so much time together because she tends to be working closely with Tom now he’s back, while I end up moving between the office and the warehouse. Yesterday though, we ended up sitting together eating our lunch, and we had a really nice conversation. Maybe the fact that I’m not talking to her through a cloud of uncertainty about our ‘relationship’ meant I could be more open and frank with her, but either way it had a positive affect. As she got up to put the kettle on, she said “Something has changed about you in the last few weeks. I don’t know what it is, but it’s made you more relaxed about yourself, and it’s been very good for you.”
I thought telling her the cause is sex with another woman wouldn’t go down well, so I lied and said “I’ve joined a gym”
Something in me really doesn’t want to tell her I’m seeing someone, and I’m not entirely sure why. Am I still hoping we’ll end up together? Am I worried it’ll change her opinion of me? Whatever the reason, I may not have to worry about it much longer. Tom tells me his wife wants to come back to the company after Christmas, so I’ll be out of work again, and Philippa and I won’t be seeing each other anymore anyway. And I’m not entirely sure how I feel about that, but it doesn’t feel good. Why is life so confusing?

RC 29-10-10

Call me crazy, but..

I’ve booked myself a holiday. I’m going to be spending the week of my birthday next year in Tunisia!! I told you Emily was having a strange effect on me. Not only am I smiling again and planning things, but I‘m over-riding my fears and insecurities to act on those plans. I’m changing, and it’s most welcome. Maybe it’s not her, maybe it’s the situation - I’ve got my confidence back and my self-esteem is growing and life is looking like an open door again, rather than a restrictive, closed closet.
Amazing what a bit of sex can do for a man.

RC 21-10-10

Whatever has come over me?

I spoke to sister Sophie today. She’s trying to avoid expensive Christmas travel, so she’s trying to arrange some extra days off in December. I told her we’d be ready for her whatever day she arrived. I’m even thinking of buying a car so I can collect her from the airport myself. I’m thinking of lots of things that I might do in the near future actually. I’m not sure what it is about Emily, but this girl is having a miraculous effect on my psyche. There’s something magical about her, but I can’t quite put my finger on it. Well, actually, I can put my finger on it, and have quite regularly in the last two weeks, but that’s a crude joke and I already regret typing it, and I apologise.

RC 20-10-10

"a means of restoring to health; a remedy"

Emily has turned me on to The Cure. Actually she’s turned me on to lots of things. Actually I could just put ‘she’s turned me on’ and leave it there, but I think I’ve covered that aspect of our relationship enough in the past few days, so let’s get back to the music.
The only Cure songs I was familiar with were ‘The Love Cats’ (because it used to be overplayed at uni parties) and ‘Friday I’m In Love’ (because it was, and still is, overplayed on radio.) But Emily has given me a Greatest Hits CD and I am very, very impressed. It’s not deep, it’s just fun, and that makes it the perfect soundtrack to my world at the moment.

RC 19-10-10

Rory, you SLUT

I met Emily two weeks ago and I only found out today what her surname is. I can tell you her favourite sexual positions, and can describe in detail the tattoo she has on her buttock, but I can’t tell you where her parents live, or if she has any brothers or sisters. A few months ago, this kind of behaviour would sicken me, but for the past fortnight I’ve been too overwhelmed with joy to care. Sometimes in life events happen so quickly that it takes a while for your consciousness and conscience to catch up. One day I may look back and feel ashamed, but for today I simply feel happy.

RC 18-10-10

Where have I been?

Hello.
Why is this my first blog entry for 17 days?
I have been distracted, spending time with a rather pleasant young lady.
Do any of you remember what it’s like when you’ve been sexless for a long time? and you suddenly find yourself ‘between the sheets’ with someone again? It’s been hard to drag myself out of bed for things like eating, much less for things like sitting at a laptop writing and posting blogs.
Don’t leap to conclusions by the way - it’s not who you might be thinking it is.
Two weeks ago I met a very nice woman called Emily. We found we have a lot in common, and one of the things we have in common is that we are sexually attracted to each other. I hate to sound like a slut, but we both made our feelings very clear very quickly and acted on them within hours and she’s barely been in her own bed since.
It’s led to a bit of an atmosphere at home. Hannah is disgusted at our behaviour, and is trying to prevent Nathan from coming round anymore. She doesn’t want my ‘loose sexual morals’ to affect her relationship with Godboy. I said it was more likely to be affected by the fact that she’d had more men than Jordan when she met him. I expected her to lash out, but she took a deep breath and said “Past behaviour is irrelevant. Today and tomorrow are the important days now.” So I said “Well today and tomorrow Emily and I plan to be f***ing, so best you and Nathan **** off somewhere.”
The atmosphere at work is a bit odd too, as you can imagine. It’s a bit confusing being with Philippa three days a week, but it’s not as if we were really getting anywhere is it? And I’m having too much fun with Emily to worry about what might have been, or could be, with someone I’ve hardly had conversations with, much less kissed.
So there.
I’m going to cook some pasta now. Emily will be back this evening, and I think I’ll be needing the energy.

RC 17-10-10