I
thought work would become unbearably busy in the school holidays, but bizarrely
my life has become easier. Most people are just turning up and getting on with
it, and with the lifting of most of the Covid restrictions there aren’t so many
protocols and procedures for us to negotiate.
I had
a little bike ride tonight, and I have to say it felt more like the end of
August than the end of July. You know those cooler, fresher, duller, almost-time-to-go-back-to-school
vibes you used to get when the calendar ticked over into September? That’s what
this evening felt like.
For
some reason, I am writing this blog posting as a series of small paragraphs. I guess
it’s the habit I’ve got into, after a week of doing my Olympics Updates.
I do
love the Olympics, and it gives me a nice tingly feeling to know that we only
have to wait 3 years until the next ones come around. (That’s assuming we don’t
succumb to a variant called Epsilon or Anus or something, or another new virus
that makes the leap from bats to humans and gives us even more of a kicking
than Covid has). I even enjoyed watching
a bit of badminton, which as you may remember is Philippa’s Sport Of Choice. There
aren’t many things she and I can watch together, but somehow it worked. Maybe
because she was giving me insightful information about the game, rather than
prattling on asking inane questions or guessing what the end of a scene will be
like, the way she does when we watch a film.
Apologies
for mentioning the Games again. And the virus.
RC 31-7-21
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Saturday, 31 July 2021
In other news...
Olympic Thoughts ENCORE
If I
was a Rugby 7 player, I would leave my legs unshaved for a few days, so that
when the opposition dive in to tackle me, they end up with nasty stubble rash.
It’s
good to see how much an Olympic medal can mean, even to millionaire tennis
players who are used to playing for personal glory rather than national pride.
Pablo Carreno Busta beat Novak Djokovic to claim the bronze and celebrated like
he’d won a Grand Slam.
It
made me laugh that the team on the starting line for the 100m heats (the guys
who rule whether athletes had jumped the gun or not) were all overweight and looked
generally unfit and unhealthy. It’s a bit like a painter and decorator judging
whether Picasso is using his brushes properly.
Dina
Asher-Smith must have given the BBC hierarchy an instant orgasm, the way she
broke down in tears during her post-race interview. It’s EXACTLY what the nappy-wearing
graduates running that corporation these days are looking for – an emotional clip
they can use as click-bait, rather than decent sporting competition.
Sticking
with Dina – I understand her determination to appear at Tokyo, despite a hamstring
problem, but if she knew she was injured and wouldn’t be able to perform
properly, shouldn’t she have withdrawn weeks ago to allow someone else to step
in and fulfil their own personal Olympic dream? Hate to call her selfish, but……
RC 31-7-21
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Olympic Thoughts 31.7.21
BMX
Racing is bizarre. It’s like watching a live-action, multiplayer version of the
old arcade game ‘PaperBoy’. Why do they have their seats set so low to the
ground? I’m guessing it helps avoid impact-induced testicular injuries, but it
may be a technical issue I’m not aware of.
Speaking
of the BMX – I thought BBC Radio 5Live went a bit over the top with their
emotional reaction to Beth Schriever winning Gold. Yes, it’s an amazing
achievement that she had her lottery funding cut and still managed to make it
to the top of the podium, but you have to remember that there were countless
other athletes in multiple sports who were in a similar situation and ended up
nowhere. If you’re going to launch into “Never give up on your dreams, kids”
rhetoric then you have to also point out the reality that it’s rare.
Rugby
Sevens is a perfect example of how a successful sport can be tweaked slightly
and made much more exciting and watchable. I like Rugby Union, and will tune
into the Six Nations and World Cup and enjoy myself, but sometimes the matches
get bogged down into a scrum-fest and look like an hour-long game of ‘tactical
shoving’. The 7s has all the best elements of the sport, but is faster, more skilful
and more thrilling.
I’m
still not sure about ‘dressage’. It’s good that all athletes in all disciplines
get a chance to appear at an Olympics, but there’s something about watching
posh twits riding dancing horses that doesn’t really seem like sport to me.
The
archery competition has been awesome, but I’d like to see it taken back to
basics, where everyone has to shoot using a bow they’ve made from a nearby
tree. Nowadays it looks like they’re using scientific instruments from CERN,
and I wonder if it’s taken away a bit of the skill. It’s become a bit like
Formula 1, where the cars are so good that literally anyone with a driving
licence can win a Grand Prix. The technology in archery is so exact that
whichever country can afford the best equipment will take Gold, regardless of
who is standing behind the bow.
RC 31-7-21
Thursday, 29 July 2021
Olympic Thoughts 29.7.21
I’m
aware that this blog has basically become ‘Rory’s Olympic Journal’ but I don’t
care. It’s been 5 years since we had the Games to enjoy, and I’m determined to
enjoy them to the fullest.
Hazel
Irvine is yet again proving that she is the best sports anchor person in
Britain. I particularly enjoyed her getting tearful when the GB ladies won bronze
in the all-round team gymnastics. I think her maternal instincts kicked in and
after seeing the girls’ interview after the medal ceremony she couldn’t help
herself and for the first time in a 30-year career she let her professionalism
slip and showed her emotions. I loved it.
Archery
is something that really needs to be on television more often.
I don’t
think I’ve mentioned the surfing yet. When it was announced, I had no idea how
it could possibly work as a televised sport, but that shows you the futility of
making judgements based on your own interpretations and expectations, rather
than waiting to see and having faith in the experienced professionals planning
the broadcasts.
I
watched the whole thing on Monday night and it was my favourite event of the
Games so far. Exciting, thrilling, spontaneous, skilful and brilliant, and the
commentary on Discovery+ (sorry, I didn’t note down their names) was exceptional.
You
know what I wrote about Archery? Ditto for the canoeing.
RC 29-7-21
Monday, 26 July 2021
Olympic Thoughts 26.7.21
It’s
a great feeling to wake up, turn on the TV, and find out that GB won THREE gold
medals overnight! But it also disappoints me a bit that I wasn’t awake to watch
them all in real time. Insomnia never strikes when I want it to.
The
scheduling is very annoying. The good stuff starts as I’m going to bed, and the
later finals happen when I’m already at work. Roll on 2024, when the Games are
in Paris and it should be easier to watch it all. Hell – I may even try and get
tickets and hop across the Channel to watch it!
Table
Tennis is the weirdest sport to try and watch on telly, and must be the hardest
thing to cover as a broadcaster. It’s all so fast and so closed in. It’s like
trying to show a chess match, but a version of chess where they throw the
pieces at each other. If you copy the camera angle they use for real tennis, the
players get in the way. If you set the cameras to the side of the table, it’s
impossible to see where the ball is going when they spin it.
In
this world of over-practiced post-match interviews with media-savvy professionals,
it’s nice to see someone win an unexpected victory and be so overwhelmed that
they forget how to speak English. Tom Pidcock – who no-one outside the world of
cycling knew existed at the weekend – won the Mountain Biking Gold Medal and was
so emotional he couldn’t put three words together. Wonderful stuff.
Lutalo Muhammad (the
taekwondo summariser) is a brilliant pundit and brilliant ambassador for his
sport. I hope we see loads more of him post-Olympics because he’s terrific and
so much more engaging than most of the television ‘personalities’ we see
polluting BBC screen time.
RC 26-7-21
Sunday, 25 July 2021
Olympics Thoughts 25.7.21
When Simone
Biles performs gymnastics, she looks like every tendon in her body has been
replaced with springs.
Taekwondo
is a weird thing to watch. The fighters face each other and never seem to bend
their backs. They stand bolt upright trying to kick each other in the head. It’s
like Riverdance mixed with the High Jump.
I can’t
watch the weightlifting. I keep worrying their eyes will pop out with the strain,
or they’ll drop the bar on their head and their skull will crack open like a
dropped egg.
Good
to see the perceived perfect playbook thrown out of the window by a cyclist
with no professional team behind her, leading to her pulling away and winning
the most unexpected Gold Medal for decades. Just goes to show – years of
planning, every fine detail computed and algorithmed, and it all goes to shit
when someone just breaks away and does it all on instinct. Shove that up your hard
drive, Brailsford.
It’s
weird that the medallists have to present themselves with their prizes from a
tray. I understand why the Covid regulations forbid one person from placing a
medal around the neck of another, but it’s a bit like someone buying you a
bunch of roses for Valentine’s Day and you having to pick them yourself.
RC 25-7-21
Saturday, 24 July 2021
Olympic Thoughts 24.7.21
After
the delightful madness of the Opening Ceremony, it’s great to get on with the
sport!
I have
no idea what is happening in Judo (or ‘dressing-gown wrestling’ as I like to
call it) but I’m amazed they don’t end up with broken toes every time.
God,
I love watching hockey. It always has the air of a game that could cause
someone a very serious injury.
The
boxing schedule is a bit brutal – 7 fights in 2 weeks to win a Gold Medal? Ouch!
Beach
volleyball, it has to be said, really struggles to be interesting without a
crowd. Maybe when the women’s tournament starts, I’ll change my mind….
RC 24-7-21
Friday, 23 July 2021
feeling fine on friday
I
have to say that the week has been a pleasant one. Obviously, the Summer
weather helps. But also, my fears of a ‘Freedom Day’ related onsite apocalypse
has not materialised, or even seemed a threat. The British public – or at
least, the ones I’ve been dealing with – are all being very cautious and
sensible, rather than the let-loose, genie-out-of-a-bottle, cat-out-a-bag,
teenagers-out-of-a-grounding lunatics I expected them to be.
It’s
rare for me to expect the worst of people, but perhaps I was guilty of it on
this particular occasion?
Anyway, if you’ll excuse
me, I think I’ll watch the Opening Ceremony of the Olympics. Or – to give them
their proper, official title – The Games of the XXXII Covidiad.
RC 23-7-21
Thursday, 22 July 2021
Olympics a-Go-Go
A
year later than planned, but here we go again….
The
Olympics are back, and this will be the FOURTH edition of the Games since I
started this blog. That’s amazing.
Things
are very different this time around, obviously, and there’s been many
discussions about whether or not they should be allowed to take place at all
(thank you Covid). I will not be drawn into the debates and over-ethical handwringing,
but I do find myself conflicted. It’s great that The Greatest Show On Earth is refusing
to be defeated by something that can’t even be seen without a microscope, but
it does seem ridiculous to throw tens of thousands of athletes from all over
our virus-ravaged world together in one small man-made village and get them to
compete at close quarters.
With that in mind, here is a List Of New Events I Think Should be Included In
Tokyo:
Synchronised
Coughing.
Modern
Pentathlon – comprising of i.conducting a lateral flow test, ii.self-isolation,
iii.making yourself a mask, iv.repetitive hand-washing, and v.ignoring rules in
supermarkets.
Diving,
into a pool of hand sanitizer.
Socially-distanced
boxing. (good luck punching someone 2metres away…)
Predicting
the final transmission rates.
RC 22-7-21
Wednesday, 21 July 2021
HOTTER and Harmonicas
It
was so hot walking around the site today I felt like my kidneys were boiling
inside me. Being too overheated and exhausted to concentrate on writing a good
blog, I thought instead about some of the best uses of the mouth organ I can
think of from popular music tracks:
Such
as -
“THERE
MUST BE AN ANGEL” by Eurhythmics (played by Stevie Wonder)
“COME
PICK ME UP” by Ryan Adams (especially in the BBC Songwriters Circle live
version)
“BRIGHT
SIDE OF THE ROAD” by VAN MORRISON
“THAT
WAS THE DAY” by The The
And Bob
Dylan has to be in there somewhere, but there are so many options.
Sod
it – I’ll go with “DON’T THINK TWICE, IT’S ALRIGHT”
Stay cool, hepcats.
RC 21-7-21
Tuesday, 20 July 2021
Moondom
Am I
going to do my annual ‘Rory Reminisces About The Lunar Landings And Waxes
Lyrical About Mankind’s Greatest Scientific Achievement’ blog?
Nah – it’s too hot for all
that. I’ll just point you in the direction of the ones I’ve written previously
and get myself another cool drink.
RC 20-7-21
Sunday, 18 July 2021
Hotter and Hurtier
The
best decision I made today was putting up anti-insect fly screens on all our doors,
so we could have them wide open without being invaded by houseflies again.
The
worst decision I made today was sitting in the garden with a book but without
applying sunscreen. “It’s late afternoon,” I thought, “the sun has lost its
strength by now.” Consequently, my shoulders now feel like a practice mat they
test scouring pads on, and my neck is redder than a redneck’s reddest
neckerchief.
The
second worst mistake I made today was deciding to cook pie and chips for tea. The
temperature was already topping 28 degrees in our kitchen when I thought it
made sense to start warming the oven for supper. Philippa doesn’t swear at me
often, but she walked in and remarked “What the f**k are you doing, you
lunatic?” before turning everything off and making us a feta salad.
All
in all, a steaming but satisfying Sunday.
RC 18-7-21
Saturday, 17 July 2021
Hot and Humble
Thank
God we’ve made it into Summer!
Lovely
to be walking around and worrying about sunburn, rather than worrying about
wind chill.
I’ve
realised this week that a lot of my work woes are based around the fact that I
am still in the mindset of working for a supermarket chain. The weather improves
and I instantly start thinking “Oh, Shit” because I know we’ll be inundated
with people buying beer and barbecue goodies, and the garage will be busy with
the extra traffic heading for the beach. But of course, I don’t have to
think like that, because nothing in my workday today will be affected by the
upturn in temperature. It takes time to adjust, I know, and it’s frustrating
that I keep returning to the same topic – the fact that I have not yet mastered
everything about my ‘new’ job. I keep having to remind myself that I need to go
easy on myself and let myself learn as I go, rather than expecting myself to know
everything and get everything right without even experiencing the reality of
the job post-lockdown.
I
have a feeling that last paragraph made no sense, but it helped get my head
straight, so I’ll leave it as it is, and try and clarify my thoughts
henceforth:
I am
working this year in a completely new role in a completely new industry. The
nature of that industry means I will not be able to learn all I need to learn
to do the job efficiently until I have worked there for a full year and taken
in all that the seasonal nature of it entails. In the meantime, I can just do
my best with whatever I am confronted with, and draw on my work history from my
previous positions to find habits and practices I can apply to current
situations and therefore fulfil my duties despite being a relative newcomer. I
have all the support and help I can need, countless people to call on if I’m
confused, and a boss who headhunted me deliberately because he liked the way I
managed the garages and who is putting no pressure on me and allowing me to
take as long as I like to get the hang of things as I go. Certain things will
remind me of my old job and bring up emotions connecting with those things and
that job, but I don’t have to react to them with panic or insecurity because they
are irrelevant to where I am now. So I can relax and learn as I go, not worry
and be overwhelmed. It’ll all fall into place eventually, and I’ll feel more
comfortable and confident as the days, weeks, months and years go by.
Well,
that paragraph made much more sense….
RC 17-7-21
Monday, 12 July 2021
Sports Thoughts (12.7.21)
I
watched highlights of the Big Final on Sunday.
(I’m
talking about the Copa America, of course…)
It made me laugh to see Lionel Messi trying to lift a trophy that was the same
size as him.
Thank
God the Duke of Kent is retiring from his duties at Wimbledon. He’s looked like
a cadaver since 1979 and watching him dodder onto Centre Court is like watching
an old woman about to cross the road at a busy junction. They should have
brought him out on a mobility scooter. Wimbledon
is all about tradition, and the same things happening at the same time every
year, and that’s great, but one thing I will not miss is seeing him follow the
exact same path and the exact same routine as he has done every year since the
60s.
I’m
not exaggerating – put on clips of his entrances when he comes out to present
the Men’s Champions with the Gold Cup and he always stops at the exact same
spot for some tired small talk with some tired ball kid or other.
The
Men’s Final was so good because the crowd made such a great atmosphere. Too
often, these showpiece matches are dulled by a group of entitled rich twits acting
like they’re attending a sermon in church. But having been starved of their
beloved Wimbledon for two years, they were all determined to enjoy it, and it
lifted the whole occasion.
And,
ok, I’ll mention the England – Italy game. I’m not a huge fan of football so I
don’t think my opinion counts for much, and there’ll be dozens of online
articles and millions of social media posts about it already without me
polluting and diluting things further.
But….
I watched it, I got into it, I thought ‘our boys’ were great. To me, Italy were
by far a better team and our lot did a bloody good job just containing them to
one goal and holding out for a draw. Penalties strike me as the most ridiculous
way of settling a sporting final, by the way. I think, in the future, they’ll
be seen as archaic, stupid, and not reflective of the team nature of the sporting
events they settle. It’s 11 v 11 for 120 minutes, then 1 v 1 in the shootout???
Daft.
But they were absorbing to watch, up-and-down like a see-saw, had more twists
and turns than a Norfolk by-road, and left me feeling drained and, yes I admit
it, disappointed.
RC 12-7-21
Sunday, 11 July 2021
Sports Thoughts (11.7.21)
How
nice it was to see a woman’s tennis match that was more about skill and less
about screaming.
Will
Novak Djokovic ever be given the credit he deserves? He is one of “The Big 3”
but he’s the one who arrived late and had to raise his game to meet the
standards of the 2 who were already established. Federer may be the more graceful
player, but he also turned up first and was able to dominate the Men’s game for
half a decade, amassing a large chunk of his Grand Slam titles in that time.
Nadal, as talented as he undoubtedly is, has won more than half his Majors at
one event – the French Open. Djokovic has had to break their duopoly, learn to
excel on all surfaces, and do all that while being seen as unpopular and
unworthy of the praise heaped upon his peers. Every story needs a villain, and
Nole has had to be the pantomime baddie to Roger and Rafa’s Ugly (one of them)
Sisters, even though he doesn’t act that way. He’s cold and calculated, sure,
but he’s had to be. But making him out to be the Evil Triplet is ridiculous
casting. He is easily The Best Of The Bunch and future hindsight will deem it
so.
In less
than 12 hours, England may be European Football Champions.
I
shall rejoice in their victory, even though I’m not exactly “Mr. Soccer”. I’m
not a huge fan of cricket, either, but it’s lovely to know we are currently
World Champions. It gives one a sense of national identity and pride. I felt
the same when we won the Rugby Union World Cup back in 2003 – very little interest
in the sport, but a huge feeling of joy when we won it.
So, I won’t do this sort of thing very often, but from the bottom of my heart –
“COME ON ENGLAND!!!”
RC 11-7-21
Saturday, 10 July 2021
Saturday Stuff
First
of all, I hope my last blog made sense. I wrote it in a bit of a hurry, in
between meetings. I had thoughts in my head that I felt I needed to express,
and didn’t worry about taking the time to filter or edit them. But isn’t that
exactly what blogs are for???
Today
we are football-ifying the entire site, in readiness for the final of the Euros
tomorrow. Gavin has gone big with the purchase of bunting, pennants and flags,
and I doubt there’s a beach ball available anywhere in Suffolk after he snapped
up a whole vanload of them yesterday. Our maintenance guy is inflating them all
tomorrow, with the plan being to fill the ballroom with them for kids to kick
around while their dads drunkenly shout at the big screen.
It’s
called ‘The Ballroom’ but I don’t want you to envisage something akin to the
one at Blackpool Tower. Ours is only slightly bigger than our main bar, but it
has a dancefloor that is approximately 65 metres square and a few disco lights,
so they gave it an elaborate name in the hope that people would pay more for
their drinks without complaining.
I genuinely do hope that
England win the match, as I think the whole nation would be in a great mood for
the rest of the Summer (and that could hopefully be carried on into August thanks
to the Olympics) but I worry that Ted will die on the spot if they do. He was
on the phone in tears after the Denmark semi-final, and Beryl told me she had feared
his heart would give out when the game went to extra-time. I’d love to see him
enjoy England lifting another trophy before he shuffles off this mortal coil.
Not that I’m expecting him to drop dead any day soon, but soccer successes for
our country do not come around very often and I can’t see him being alive for
the next one.
RC 10-7-21
Thursday, 8 July 2021
Sore heads and smiling faces
Well,
well, well. Who would have thought it? England fans expected and the players
delivered, rather than disappointed. At work, we allowed people into the onsite bar to
watch it and we took an incredible amount of money through the tills!
I’m
not quite as euphoric as everyone else around me seems to be this morning. I’m
not a huge follower of football, and I’m not someone who will jump onto
whatever cultural bandwagon is currently rolling past and dominating social
media, but I must confess to feeling a strange amount of pride and a certain
swelling of enthusiasm. As Ted eloquently put it to me – “Those f**kers have
been letting us down for years. I’m probably one of the only people in the country
who remembers a f**king final with England in it.”
It has
reminded me a little of my own experience with the Super Bowl in 2013, and
again in 2020.
Yes
- sorry – I’m going to make this all about me, because that’s what modern people
do. (I refer you again to the aforementioned social media).
I love
the NFL, and my team is the San Francisco 49ers. They are historically one of
the most successful franchises in the sport, but all that success happened before
I was able to watch it and involve myself in it. I started following the team
more passionately and being able to watch them on British TV during a long,
horrible, uninspiring lean spell for them. So when they made it to ‘The Big
Game’ 8 years ago, I was ecstatic. It was a chance to prove themselves as the
best team playing that year, but also a chance for me to ‘revisit’ glory days
that I had been too young to feel a part of when they happened. In the end, at
the final whistle, they fell short, but that didn’t bother me too much, because
I was so proud they had made it that far in the first place.
Now I
would never make so bold as to tell fans of a sport I’m not interested in how they
should behave, but maybe that’s the attitude England should have on Sunday. It
would be such a terrible shame if Southgate and his players were deemed to be ‘failures’
just because they lost their last game in a tournament. That would completely
detract from the wonderful achievement of getting themselves to that game;
something no-one under the age of 60 in this country can ever remember
happening before.
I’m
not saying you should just turn up and enjoy the occasion, and be happy to be
there, but if you can approach it with the opinion that you’ve already reached
a goal very few people believed you would reach, then you can feel less
pressure and enjoy every single minute of this once-in-a-lifetime event. And –
win or lose – the feelings of pride and elation can continue.
RC 8-7-21
Wednesday, 7 July 2021
Smile, and the R smiles with you
I’m
not a fan of football, as you know, but I have to say that even I am getting a
bit swept up in all the feelgood vibes circulating around the England team and
their achievements at the Euros. (or should it be Euro’s???)
Although
not affected directly, I can fully appreciate the joy on the faces of my work
colleagues, so I’m getting a nice lift of mood by osmosis (sort of).
I’m
not sure how I feel about the whole “Freedom Day going ahead despite advice to
the contrary” debate going on at the moment. You would have thought that an
announcement from the Prime Minister that almost all restrictions will
disappear mid-July would have us all dancing in the streets with joy, but I
think we’re all a bit reluctant and uncertain.
Personally,
I have the feeling that I’m on a bus that is being driven over a cliff, and
while the experts on the bus are looking down and saying how bad the fall is
going to be, the driver at the front is keeping his foot on the accelerator and
telling everyone how lovely the view is.
But,
what the Hell? I’m just going to follow the masses and go along in blind
ignorance, hoping the vaccine programme will outrun the exploding number of
infections.
A
prediction for tonight’s ‘Big Game’? Oh, go on then – England 3-1 Denmark.
RC 7-7-21
Tuesday, 6 July 2021
Poor Emma
I
love watching women’s tennis, but I didn’t enjoy watching it last night,
because I wasn’t watching a tennis match, I was watching an 18-year-old girl
getting bullied into a panic attack.
There
is an over-used and under-appreciated phrase in this country, which is ‘duty of
care’. It’s a term that looks great on company policies, but as a concept, it
is misunderstood by employees and poorly executed by most bosses. At its heart,
though, is the idea that we are all supposed to look after each other and not do
anything to damage anyone else’s welfare, especially those we have a degree of
responsibility for. Emma Raducanu was failed horribly by everyone who should
have been protecting her best interests. Instead of putting their arms around
her and giving her their support, they pushed her out onto Court No.1 and hung
her out to dry.
At
the time I am writing this, there is not yet an official announcement about what
may have been wrong, but as someone with a personal understanding of anxiety, I
am pretty sure I know what was happening to her. And I’m really not surprised.
Earlier
yesterday, Novak Djokovic had answered questions about his easy win against a
lowly-ranked opponent, and he pointed out how overwhelming an appearance on
Wimbledon’s show courts could be. He explained how simply walking out onto the
grass at a venue you have watched for years on television can do incredible
things to your mind. Your head, if I may be permitted to paraphrase him here,
can go haywire.
All
the top players have said how you have to learn to be a top player. It’s not
just about being good at tennis and beating the person at the other end of the court,
it’s about dealing with the whole set of circumstances that surround the match.
The media, the traditions, the protocol, the nerves, the drug tests, the
travel, meal schedules, rain delays. There are enormous amounts of outside factors
to negotiate and rise above, and it takes a long time to get used to it, and
still be able to compete.
Emma
Raducanu, who only recently joined the WTA Tour and is ranked outside the Top
300 in the World, had to simultaneously deal with multiple firsts - her first
win at a Grand Slam, playing in front of a big crowd, speaking to the media, being
recognised, known and admired – without any thought being given to how well she
might have been coping. The BBC and Wimbledon conspired to make her the
centrepiece player on a show court at a time they could get peak viewing, which
meant she had to wait around for hours on end, trying to keep herself mentally
prepared for a match that two weeks ago no-one would have given her a chance
in. She has gone from being a complete
unknown to a national celebrity in the course of a week and was expected to
carry the hopes of the whole UK, completely on her own, live on prime-time television.
And
it’s only a month since she finished her A-levels.
At
18, I had received top marks in my year for a practical chemistry exam. My teacher
described me as ‘competent beyond my experience’. But if you had made me do
that experiment again, in an arena containing 10,000 people, and kept reminding
me that millions more were watching from home, and that their happiness depended
on my success, I’m pretty sure I would have gone to pieces. My hands would have
shaken so much I’d have ended up spilling acid all over myself. Or I might have
felt violently sick to my stomach. Or I might have had difficulty breathing.
My
main worry in all this is that it’s not something she can easily move on from.
It’s all over the media today and will be replayed, analysed and scrutinised by
experts and laymen alike, and given more importance than it ever needs to hold.
And however the rest of Emma’s year pans out, she faces the prospect of
returning to Wimbledon next year and having to ‘face her demons’. Anyone who
has ever had an anxiety attack in a shop (for example) will tell you how incredibly
difficult it is to return to that same location again. The mere thought of
being back in that same place physically is enough to take you back to that same
state mentally. The familiar surroundings can bring on the symptoms, because
your mind associates that location to the way you felt when you were there, and
your body reacts accordingly. The thought that panic might happen again is
sometimes enough to cause that panic to arise.
And even
if she comes back stronger and calmer, you just know that the newspapers will
take great delight in 2022 in reminding her about what happened on 5th
July 2021. Because that’s what they do. A relatively minor incident in her
young life will become a millstone around her neck that will be brought up repeatedly
and therefore kept in the forefront of her mind, no matter how much she tries
to move on from it.
Think
I’m exaggerating?
You
only have to look at what’s happening with the current England football manager
Gareth Southgate. He is helping lift the spirits of a nation and he is leading
his young charges to unprecedented levels of international acclaim, but every
day he is asked about an incident from 25 years ago. Redemption stories sell
papers, and Raducanu’s trauma last night will be used as a stick to beat her
with until she wins again at Wimbledon; probably even beyond that. And I
suspect, being a very bright young woman, she knows all that, and it is probably
adding to her woes today.
We’re
supposed to be getting better at this mental health stuff. We’re being told
that companies are taking better care of their staff, and that as a society we’re
treating each other with more understanding and support. And then one week into Wimbledon we all buy
into the hype and hyperbole and force ridiculous expectations on the shoulders
of someone young.
We
have gone nowhere but backwards.
RC 6-7-21
Monday, 5 July 2021
The Death of Rory's Bet
Well –
my prediction that today would be the day that restriction lifting would be
thrown into reverse doesn’t appear to be coming true. Mind you, the day isn’t
over yet, and there’s still the chance that the leaks about the PM’s News
Conference later are all wrong and he’s going to announce another lockdown, but
I doubt it.
I’m
not sure how I feel about it all, really. The number of cases and the advice
from the science and medical bods seems to be indicating its too early to throw
everybody’s masks in the bin, and I’d hate to see a bright future derailed just
to prove a political point. I think most of us would rather put up with a few ongoing
curtailments than risk a return to the horrors of the first few months of the
year. What’s the rush? We know the vaccines are working, but we’re nowhere near
being in control of Covid so why not keep our foot on its throat (as Mr Johnson
has said before) until a few more million doses have been dished out? Seems
silly to risk developing new variants by allowing the virus to spread among the
unvaccinated, rather than hold off for another month or so and really back it
into a corner.
But
what do I know?
I’ve
got enough on my plate gearing up for 19th July and an onslaught of
incoming holidaymakers who are not restricted on arrival times or movements
(assuming ‘Freedom Day’ goes ahead), I don’t need to be taking on the government’s
role as well.
RC 5-7-21