Tuesday, 13 August 2019

Calm


Been quite a nice day today. I feel like I haven’t been able to say that enough in recent weeks, so it’s good to type it today. I’ve had a bit of a change in attitude, I think, which has helped. It’s hard to see life as an enjoyable experience when every waking moment feels like a struggle to survive. With my ‘Glasses of Brightness’ on the world seems less threatening and more welcoming.
Mathew is a delight and remains my oasis of hope. I haven’t said much about him recently as I don’t want to turn into one of those annoying over-proud parents who clutter up the internet with their gurgling shite, and also because most of his life involves eating, shitting and sleeping, so a running commentary wouldn’t be particularly pleasant. But that doesn’t mean I’m not enjoying him immensely.
I think the weird hours he keeps are having an effect on us though. He seems determined to be awake at different times each day and I can’t remember the last time I slept through a night without disturbance. That probably explains my unsettled emotional state and my weird style of blogging in the past few weeks.

RC 13-8-19

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