A plan

Parenthood is tiring. I think that's my main conclusion after the events of the past few weeks. Children are the best thing that can possibly happen to you, but raising them is a drain on your energy and your finances and I think there's nothing wrong in me saying that. It is not something that should be taken lightly. There are unbelievably high upsides but there's also a lot of time spent feeling like you're drowning in their needs and struggling to keep yourself sane. You can easily become nothing but a parent and provider. Nothing wrong in either of those two virtuous positions, but you need to be yourself as well. A person should never get lost behind a title and that is true of 'Mum' and 'Dad' as much as it is true of 'Manager' or 'Milkman' (for example).
So I am going to make the effort to watch a film tonight! And it will be a film of my choosing, not something that is right for the children or a nice thing to share with my wife. It'll be some stupid Jason Statham action flick or an old comedy that might be seen as inappropriate these days. I shall sit and I shall snack and I shall lose myself in the distracting world of movies for two hours and then I shall probably go to bed. And I am sure that will make me feel better about life.
A small step, and it may seem that I'm overexcited about it, but it's one that I feel needs taking and it's one that I'm sure will set me on my way back to being the Rory that Rory likes being.

RC 25-5-24
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