The Sun returned to the Suffolk skies this morning so I took myself off for a bike-ride and some thinking.
It was lovely.
There was very little traffic about, which surprised me on a Saturday morning, but I guess that’s the beauty of living somewhere small surrounded by farmland. I did an eight-mile circuit and found lots of footpaths and bridleways that I can explore over the coming weeks and months (and years!!) I also cleared my head a bit and gave myself a bit of a talking-to. The truth is that I’ve let myself lose control of myself and got into some bad, old habits. I’m eating like shit again and justifying it with crap excuses like “Stressful moves”, “Work are messing me about” and “It’s Summer!” Losing lots of weight was the best thing I ever did. It improved my fitness, my self-esteem, and my mental health, but in the last four weeks I’ve forgotten all that and just eaten and drunk what I felt like. I’m really noticing the difference now and it’s time to rein it in, because I don’t ever, ever want to look at a set of scales again and see the ‘stone’ indicator move past the number eighteen.
So it’s back to planning meals in advance, only buying food that’s on the food plan, and only allowing fruit as a snack between meals.
I’m also going to take the bullet by the horns work-wise. There’s obviously some reluctance or ineptitude somewhere that is preventing my requested transfer to another store. So I’m going to apply for the managers position they’re currently advertising at a supermarket petrol station in Suffolk, and do it as an external candidate, and see if that provokes some kind of response. Bitching and moaning constantly isn’t getting me anywhere, and isn’t doing my head any good, so it’s time to change tack and see if I can find a better wind.
Man, I feel better already……….
RC 23-8-14
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