A round 250

I have a really bad headache.
I think it’s because I’ve stopped taking antidepressants and my body is slowly readjusting. Sophie and I were discussing it all on one of the rare moments we had together in Edinburgh, and she said there are normally always side effects when you come off them. The longer you’ve been taking them, the harder it is to wean yourself off them, which is why she advised me to see my doctor regularly so I could get off them before I became too ‘dependent.’
The truth is, I feel pretty good about life now, and I can’t believe how low I sank last Autumn. It seems hard to imagine now, but there were days when I simply could not get myself out of bed. Going to the doctors when I did was one of the best things I’ve ever done in my life, and I’m really quite proud of myself for doing it. How on Earth people with long-term clinical depression can go on and achieve things is amazing, and also inspirational.

I’ve found a website offering chess tips, so I’m arming myself with some new tactics before I face Ted again on Sunday. I look forward to these games the way a child looks forward to injections, so it’ll be nice to go in feeling like I may stand a chance this time. Whatever happens, there’s the SuperBowl to enjoy on Sunday night, so that’s something I can think about while getting beaten again.

RC 5-2-10