Thursday, 23 January 2020

So this is what its like to be 36


Life feels a bit boring and depressing the week after your birthday. Thank God I have Mathew to lift me from the gloom. His tiny fingers gripping mine and his gurgling smile when he has wind after a feed are the best antidepressants on Earth.
I did take it as a bit of a personal attack when my big day was classified as ‘Blue Monday’. As they tell us every year (because they are lazy and just keep recycling the same old stories) the third Monday in January is the worst day of the year for suicides, calls to The Samaritans, and general low mood. I remember reading a report once that said – overwhelmingly – the most likely day for someone to kill themselves is always on their birthday. I was special and lucky this year because the other most likely day for everyone to top themselves was on MY birthday. So – if you know someone who jumped off a cliff three days ago, I’m sorry for your loss, but I’m honoured it happened when it did. And it cheers me to know that, every year on my birthday, you will be marking the occasion in your own morose way.
Jeez, I’m in a weird mood today.

RC 23-1-20

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