Birthday build-up

And suddenly, just like that, I am almost 39!
Age has never bothered me, numbers have never bothered me, and yet I do find it weird to think that I am edging very, very close to being 40. I hadn't even thought about it until someone in HR at work spoke to me this week and said, 'Oooh, it's a big one next year then!' and now I can't stop thinking about it. 

I remember looking up at people in their 40s and thinking how old they were, and now I am one orbit around the sun away from joining them.  I also think, deep down, in my darkest moments, I never really believed I would survive this long. Mind you, I never really believed I would be a Dad either, and now I have two sons, so what do I know?

 

Hannah and Nathan are coming over later today because it's our only chance to see each other this week. Weird to think that it's only a few years ago we used to have a right-old drink-up on my birthday. Now I can't handle more than a small glass of wine on a work night, and Hannah doesn't want to be hungover while teaching, so it'll be mugs of tea and probably a takeaway of some kind this evening.  

 

The conversation with HR, by the way, was to do with me booking next Friday and the following Monday off, so Philippa and I and the boys could make a weekend of it. Philippa says she 'has plans' but I'm not allowed to know what they are. I can't imagine it'll be a rowdy one with a two-month-old baby in tow, but we'll see.

RC 15-1-23