My diet seems to have gone incredibly haywire
recently. I always let myself go a bit at Christmas, and it nearly always
carries on until my birthday, but it’s normally just a bit of overindulgence,
rather than being particularly unhealthy.
At the moment, though, I seem to be hoovering
calories like a Dyson hoovers dust. It’s mostly shit stuff too. Crisps, cakes, chocolate,
pastries. I’m starting every day with a bacon roll in the staff canteen and
ending it with cheese and biscuits at home. In between, I’m snacking on anything
salty that isn’t glued down to a shelf, and I’m having lunches that are larger
than most people’s wedding meal. I keep
finding excuses to go over to the main store and every time I do, I’m bringing
back something edible.
I think it’s one of those self-feeding (no pun
intended) loop things. I don’t cycle much during Winter coz I find it buggers
my chest up inhaling all the cold air, so I feel a bit unfit anyway, so it
doesn’t bother me if I eat something shitty. If I was exercising, I’d feel
better about myself, and it would provoke me to eat more healthily. I know
that’s a fact, but I’m still giving in to the urges.
It needs to stop really.
I don’t weigh myself often, but I wear a belt round
my work trousers, and I have to confess that I’m using a part of the belt
hitherto unfastened, so I can’t deny that I’m getting fatter.
Once I finish that large bag of peanuts in my office
drawer, and once I’ve finished the large wheel of stilton at home, and once they
stop selling cheap Reese’s Peanut Cups in the supermarket, I’m turning over a
new leaf, for sure.
RC 4-2-20
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