I want
to change the subject matter of my blogs this week, but it’s hard when my mind
tends to be obsessively focussed on one subject at a time. Look back through my
online history and there’ll be several sections where I just keep revisiting
the same topic for a while. (Usually work unhappiness, the weather, or my wife’s
obsession with parenthood.)
I
took my bike out for a gentle cyclette this evening, but failed to enjoy the
exercise or the scenery as my head was filled with both sides of the ‘Will
I/Won’t I’ argument about the new job. I need to distract myself, but when I do
things that should distract me I’m distracted from doing them by the thing that
I’m trying to distract myself from. Crazy. Maybe alcohol is the answer. In
small quantities it can help to switch you off from your problems. In larger
amounts it can help you forget them for a while. Take it further and you can
just pass out and avoid the hassle completely. Sounds quite an attractive
proposition but I’m sure I’ve tried that before and I’m sure it didn’t really
work. You can’t avoid these kinds of situations and decisions, you can only
postpone them. You have to face them head on and go for it or hide in fear and
then make a snap judgement while your head is jumbled. It’s up to you. By which
I mean – it’s up to me.
Time
for a shower, then some reading.
RC 10-5-18
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