There was a light sky tonight until quarter to six. QUARTER TO SIX!! That’s almost midnight!!
As you can tell, I’m fit-to-burst with optimism today. My mood is on the upslope and I’m determined to ride it and enjoy it before it crashes down the other side!
Philippa is still unhappy with me, but not in a way that makes me think I’ll be living on my own soon. She says it’s her own fault really - she expects too much of me and then gets disappointed when I don’t live up to the standards she is hoping I’ll reach. That sounds to me like she’s let me off the hook, but I’m sure when I sit down and process what she said in detail I’ll realise she’s actually still as narked off with me as she was this time yesterday. And I think I know exactly when it’ll hit me and swirl around in my head and make me feel awful and convince me she’s about to leave me - it’ll be at 3am one morning when I’m back on the downslope and already feeling awful about myself, and it’ll make my insomnia worse and I’ll cry.
Anyway - back to the optimism!!
We are meeting up with Sophie and Tamara on Friday night. We’re all free and it’ll be our first chance to get together since my birthday bash. And I don’t think any of us can remember that weekend, so it’ll be nice to try and do it all again (but with less hangover…)
RC 17-2-14
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