futile

I'm thinking I might have to abandon my Blog Challenge for this year, and just concentrate on writing and posting them when I feel up to it. The added pressure of trying to squeeze more than a dozen posts into the last few days of May is making me feel a bit sick, to be honest. I know it's nothing to do with the blog and more to do with my constant underlying anxiety and feelings of ineptitude, but it still adds fuel to the fires of negativity within me and I think I need to take the pressure off myself a bit. This thing - if it ever is readable - is best when I am just flowing naturally and writing about everyday incidents as they happen, rather than forcing words into the blogsphere because I feel obligated. I may well change my mind at a later date and go crazy with a burst of productivity (or write some haiku and post them one at a time, as previously considered) but for now I think the best decision for me and my mental stability is to abandon the 21-19-recurring theme of the year and save it for a future challenge.

RC 25-5-25