Another reason to love her..

I had some kind of weird panic attack in the training room today. I was tired, having sat through six hours of being shown the different ordering systems, and starting to feel bored and out of my depth. My trainer (hereafter known as ‘The Man With The Most Boring Voice In The Universe’) went off to get a cup of tea. Left to my own devices, I decided to attempt one of the ‘ghost orders’ that he’d been showing me, and it went horribly, horribly wrong. I somehow managed to order £100,000 worth of cucumbers from a supplier in Spain, and re-programme the computer so that everything on the screen turned blue.
When my trainer returned, he took one look at the screen and said “Some children just can’t help playing with things can they?” before re-setting the colour scheme with the simple press of a button. Then he looked at the order I’d messed up, sighed and said “Good job we have a few more days to go over this…”
My confidence was in tatters, and I couldn’t help thinking ‘this could be the story of my life for the next three decades - struggling to understand computer systems and being patronised by a mono-browed, mono-toned tech geek with hands like a woofter and no buttocks’ and that was when the panic set in.
By the time I got home I was tearful and on the verge of vomiting. I poured my feelings out to Philippa who gave me a hug, then picked up her car keys and said ‘come on, let’s go for a walk on the beach.’ It was the last thing I felt like doing but by God it did me the world of good.
When we got back, I was relaxed and hungry, and that awful feeling of dread and claustrophobia was gone. Philippa said “If you can’t get the hang of it, or you end up hating it, you can leave and do something else. Earning money is not worth hurting your soul for. Remember that, anytime you feel like you did today, and I promise it’ll all feel better. And if it doesn’t, come home to me and we’ll go and sit on the beach.”
So on top of being funny, beautiful, clever, caring, gorgeous, sexy and wonderful, she is also very wise.
Whatever did I do to deserve her?

RC 24-5-11