Lover's Lament part 2 (July '24 poem 4)

How many confrontations before a good thing breaks?
How many times of being told that I have made mistakes?
How many wasted weekends? Trying; making worse.
How much do I put up with, before I put 'me' first?
How many failed apologies, delivered incorrect?
How many past progressions that I'm forced to now regret?
How many empty promises, and disenchanted dreams?
How much hope extinguished when 'it's darker than it seems'?
How many accusations fly before I just give up?
How much of this is in my mind and how much adding up?
How much maladjustment, to fit a partner's way?
How much do I want to go? Or do I want to stay????

RC 25-7-24