Change of thinking

I'm very content today. Relaxed, calm, and generally feeling pretty good about myself. It might just be relief that my recent low mood has lifted, but actually I think I've just finally shaken off the Covid after-effects. My bloody brain just didn't seem able to put things together in the way it should, and physically I've felt pretty exhausted too.  Today, though, all that seems to have alleviated somewhat. I'm not chasing thoughts around my own head trying to get two halves of the same idea to match up, I feel like I've eaten properly so I have enough energy to function, and my senses are able to take in what's going on around me and react accordingly. For the past couple of weeks it's just been like I've been wandering around in a daydream.
And it's lovely to be able to appreciate the beauty of things around me. I live in a great area of the country, the park I work on is beautifully maintained and everything is still behaving like it's late Summer. And today I am able to enjoy it. Light wind, temperatures in the early 20s! lots of flowers still out (that probably shouldn't be) and plenty of wildlife roaming around. Squirrels, especially. They seem to be everywhere. I guess it's this year's litter now getting to adulthood and out and about scavenging for stuff to store away for the Winter. It all looks pretty glorious and I am actually enjoying it today.
I guess it helps, too, that the madness of the school holidays is behind us. Everything does take on a completely different air when it's August, and thankfully we don't have to think about that for another 10 months or so. It was made more taxing this year, of course, by Gavin nonsensically sending me down to Devon, but let's not go on about that, because I've moaned about it enough already, and because he is still trying to get me down there permanently....

RC 7-10-23