Cause for concern

Philippa had to be seen by one of the doctors she works with today. She kept feeling dizzy all morning and then felt really ill later in the day. Turned out to be a blood pressure issue, which is not a great thing to get involved in when you’re pregnant. Scary stuff, but they seem to think there’s nothing underlying to worry about. She’s gonna take the rest of week off work and has been loaned a BP machine to keep checking herself. She‘s asleep now, and was very chilled all evening. It doesn’t seem to have phased her in the slightest, while I, on the other hand, am beside myself with worry. I nearly threw up when she called me at work this afternoon. I went into an anxiety meltdown and missed the second half of what she was saying because my mind was already racing into emergency operations and baby deaths. I am now trying to stay calm and not spend the next few hours sneakily putting the blood pressure cuff on her arm, just to check, or reading loads of web info about things like pre-eclampsia. (which she doesn’t have, by the way, but turned up in an internet search I did as something that can cause hypertension during pregnancy)

Parenthood is giving me a heart attack already and the bloody baby hasn’t even been born yet.

RC 3-10-18