Old Years News/New Years...what?

I didn’t plan this, but by posting blogs on New Years Eve and the day before I set a new record - 229 blogs in one calendar year! I’d like to set myself a challenge of hitting 250 this year, each of which will be 250 words long, but my New Years resolution was to be more realistic, and knowing myself as I do I don’t think it’s realistic to think I’ll stick to that and achieve it, so why set myself up for failure? Of course it’s also worth considering that I never stick to my New Years resolutions, so if I ignore my intention to be realistic then I can plough on with my intention to reach 250. But where does that leave me? What’s more important? What I am aiming for?  Who am I??? This whole way of thinking sets up a real paradoxical mind-melt of confusion that has left me lost. 
Good luck making sense of THAT.

RC 3-1-18