Lawns and Laziness

I couldn’t move much today, but when I did I pottered about the garden pulling weeds up and stuff. It was strange to stand there, surveying the extent of our borders, and to think that it will soon be officially OURS rather than just a garden we are taking care of for someone else. That made me feel both wonderful and worried; both magnificent and malcontent. Because it means we can do whatever we like with it, but that whatever needs to be done HAS to be done by US. I put those words in capitals for emphasis, because this is now our truth. It’s great, but it’s galling. It means responsibility and action. We can’t simply dream about our ideal place and hope it magically materialises, we now have to face the reality of putting in the work ourselves or never seeing the garden we envisage.
Real life is a bugger, isn’t it?

RC 22-5-16