panicattack

I’ve had a sleepless night and I feel awful. After a couple of weeks of relaxed pre-Christmas, pre-wedding calmness, I exploded into a frenzy of fear last night and lay awake with a pounding chest and a throbbing head.
I can’t even tell you why.
I love this time of year and I’m well ahead with my Xmas plans, and I genuinely cannot wait to get married, so why did I spend a good few hours wanting to jump in my car and disappear to the wilds of Scotland?
The mind is a weird thing.
I remember reading that you can sometimes confuse extremely positive and negative emotions as the physical feelings they produce are so similar, so I’m hoping it was some kind of excitement overload, rather than an onset of an onslaught of anxiety.
Time will tell, one way or another.

RC 7-12-15